In 1980 I
became aware of world events in a meaningful way for the first time.
Sure I recall images and bits of information from previous years,
but 1980 was when I began to question what I was seeing. Images of
burned bodies broadcast on television following the failed hostage
rescue were among the first demonstrating the morbid consequences of
failure. Then there was the wrath of nature ( Mt. St. Helens), the
carnage of accidents (Skyway Bridge collapse), all of these
terrifying events captivated me and made me realize the world was
bigger, more spectacular and/or terrifying than I’d ever imagined.
Realizing that great stories hid in the realities, I wanted to
know more about the world. I read books differently after that,
finding in them secret messages, symbolic references, codes of
information buried between the lines. Literary allusion it was
called. I realized that writing was more than just words scribbled
on paper and I got excited. Pretty nerdy, I know; but a new desire
gripped me, an obsession one could say.
It was sometime around ten o’clock one night. Everyone in the
house had fallen asleep and that familiar silence of night,
interrupted only by crickets and other insects chirping outside,
kept me awake, I mean wide awake. I was thinking, not about what I
did that day or what I was going to do, but about other things. The
universe, things I wanted to do, adventures I dreamed of living.
After all, I was just a kid languishing in the dreadful monotony of
suburbia where not much happened.
So there I lay in my twin size bed, orange carpet, red wool
blanket, one orange wall and three white (hey, it was just after the
seventies) dreaming and getting antsy. Just as a precursor, I have
to tell you that my dad gave me a gift I doubt he had any idea would
change my life to the degree that it did. He was at sea when he sent
it to me. It was a fountain pen. I’d never had anything but ball
points and markers before that. That pen felt very different when I
used it, almost like it painted words. The ink really flowed so I
had to make sure not to leave the tip touching the paper any longer
than a microsecond.
I started writing that night. I still have the story, handwritten
front and back some fifty eight pages of text, my first so called
“book.” I was nine years old. Looking back, it was a most
amateurish nonsensical prattling, demonstrating not only my age but
how little I knew about anything. The story dealt with war,
interplanetary conflict in a time of vanishing resources, obsession,
ruthlessness, and heroism in the face of seemingly insurmountable
odds.
Over the years my writing improved, in part because I read
everything I could get my hands on, but mostly because of life
itself. From listening to the stories of my father who barely
survived Nazi oppression – only to be fettered down by Soviet
despotism – to having traveled to over twenty-five countries by
the age of 16 – where I not only met people from all over the
world, but witnessed first hand the vicious poverty of the third
world.
Experiencing first hand a poverty from which there is no hope of
escape, triggers something in you that for your entire life you
struggle to understand. To believe that the poor choose their
poverty is a philosophical luxury that those of us in the lower
middle class, upper middle class, wealthy, and everything in between
convince ourselves is true, so that we can turn away and not feel
ashamed; or worse, that we embrace because it empowers us.
After law school, the intricacies of government, politics, law,
and even the functioning of our society suddenly made a very
different kind of sense. Having practiced law, I saw how the ideals
breakdown, how power, money, and greed conspire each and every day
to reshape our lives in the name of a profit maximization principal
that disregards ethical responsibility. Having worked both sides of
the political fence, I watched politicians pervert truth for
political gain (but that’s not news, right? Who hasn’t seen
that, even from a distance?). It is indeed a very different world
that we live in than the one we see.
Over time experiences pile up in your mind and without either the
gift or the curse of forgetting the past, there is nothing you can
do but let the world in on what you’ve seen. For me, writing was a
way to communicate the full extent of what deeply moved, shocked,
repulsed, or elated me. In fiction there are truths for those who
challenge themselves to find them. For those who are not into that,
there is at the very heart of what is written a tale that takes us
far beyond the confines of our lives and lets us in on secrets we
would perhaps not have considered.
So with that, take a look inside my books, then take a look at
the world around you. We are all coffers of secrets, things that
make us imperfect. If we are judging, we are not understanding.
- Stanley Gallon -